This past Saturday, I got married, and at first I was nervous. Marriage is a big thing! I’m not someone who grew up being close to anyone, being close to people was a foreign expression to me. I had no idea what love really was, and then I met Jesus. I met the most wonderful daddy I could ever know, and then God decided to throw some extra love into my life.
Not only did He bless me with an amazing best friend and roommate (Chelsea) but He blessed me with someone who knows me better than anyone else. Matt came along just when I needed him and when he needed me, and though I didn’t like him at first, we ended up being together forever. The day before the wedding, I was thinking about how my life was about to change, even more than it already had. I just graduated from college and now I’m getting married.
Then the day arrived, I was getting married to the man of my dreams, before God and my family and friends. His vows blew me away and I had made it the whole day without crying until I got to the part of my vows where I said “Today I’m marrying my best friend” then the rest of the evening flew by and we left for our honeymoon. We’ve been married for almost a week now and already I’ve realized so much!
The gift of a spouse is amazing, already God has shown me how amazing it can be to have someone who can be strong in Him when I can’t and point me to Him. I have already seen the love of God through my husband. I have seen that marriage is not just a big scary commitment but a wonderful journey. Matt and I will not always be happy and we will have arguments but because of God we will always choose love over hate.
Tomorrow we will be back to reality but, I’m excited because every night I get to lay my head by, someone to pray with, someone to hold me when I cry. I have someone to point me to Christ when my own selfish ambitions get in the way. Matt is a man, a man who loves God and tries to live by the word everyday. I am so blessed, God has given me more than I could ever imagine! Not only this but I have someone I can safely lean on, I’ve never known what it’s like to have someone to feel safe with.
I’ve never known how to lean on someone, and now I’m learning to lean on the person God gave me. I am so happy, I’m so grateful for the life God has given me. I say all this to say, being vulnerable is okay, marriage or even just a relationship can be terrifying but, if it’s pleasing to God, it will bring you more joy and closer to Him. Our spouses, help us to be more holy, and when we have children we will know even more the love God has for us and why He did what He did.
Be strong, do not let your insecurities drive you away from others because God puts people in our lives for a reason. God is good and He will take care of you always and if that means another person to lean on, let Him move you.