I will not leave you as orphans; will come to you. Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live.-John 14:18-19
I did not grow up a Christian. My parents went to church and forced us to go but my heart wasn’t there. I felt many of the people in the church were one way there and a totally different way outside of the church. For that reason, I really pushed the church away for a long time. In high school, I started going to a church with my boyfriend at the time and for the first time, I felt loved. I felt wanted. From then on, I began to grow and finally at the end of my junior year of high school, I gave my life to Christ.
Since then, the Lord has rescued and redeemed me from many things. I’ve been in a relationship with the Lord for 7 years now. Let me tell you, that was the best decision of my life.
Statistically because of my family background, area I grew up in, and situations I got in, I should have gotten pregnant, dropped out of high school, and been with a guy who didn’t really love me. The Lord rescued me from that. He rescued me from my anxiety ruling my life, from pain, and shame. Sometimes it can be easy to only look at whats going on in our lives at the moment, but when you take a step back and see all the Lord has brought you out of, life doesn’t seem so impossible anymore.
Your beauty and love chase after me every day of my life. Im back home in the house of God for the rest of my life.-Psalm 23:6
There was a pastor back home who used to always say “You are not a mistake, or an accident” especially when there are baby dedications. Its easy to forget that but its so profound. I will always remember that phrase. We are all so important, loved, and wanted. We are not mistakes. satan likes to tell us that we aren’t enough, that we should just shut up and be alone because no one will love us. That is so far from the truth. satan likes to say that we really aren’t important and that our lives won’t amount to anything.
Do you notice that everything he says aligns with all the bad stuff that happens in this world? Every baby (sorry for getting controversial) is important and deserves to live, every person is beautiful, every person has a purpose, every sinner deserves a second chance. The Lord brought me out of self harm and self hatred. satan was telling me that I had no purpose that no one loved me. Then I met my Abba Father in heaven and now, that lie doesn’t define me anymore.
No matter who you are, what you’ve been through, or what you think of yourself… Christ, thinks, knows, you’re more worthy than a diamond or a pearl. You are precious. Be proud. Be happy and thankful for the things you’ve been rescued from and brought out of. No matter where you grew up, who your parents were, your financial status, you can be successful, you can be strong. You just have to speak over yourself the truths of love from above.
I don’t know everything, Im human. I can tell you though that, Christ, has truly rescued me. From myself, from the chains of sin, the bondage of guilt, and the lies of the enemy. I did some sneaking out, skipping school, and lying in high school, but Christ redeemed me. That is not who I am anymore, and now, I am becoming the person He has purposed me to be. I have been to hell and back in life, gone through many things no child should ever go through. If I can make it through, theres a glimmer of hope for every person who feels hopeless, for every soul that feels defeated, for every child that feels worthless.
Real love doesn’t meet you at your best. It meets you in your mess. -J.S. Park
Know that you are loved. You have value. Your mental disorder doesn’t define you. Your parents don’t define you. You are worth loving. You are beautiful. You are not a mistake or an accident. You are.